October 2011
Oh my god...
I’m slowly realizing all the things I’ve done in the past few weeks..
I want to die.
I hope you forgive me.
I hope I didn’t actually hurt someone.
I know I had to have at some point though..
Slowly remembering everything sucks…:
winning.
Yuhhhhh
Bonfire night
always going. always going. go go go go.
just stop for a second. one second.
I knew I’d end up doing this.
I’m a fucking loser.
And I can’t stand living in a house (my house) where everyone lives with their boyfriend or girlfriend besides me. I hate sleeping alone when I know the entire house isn’t..
September 2011
galvanize-infinity asked: you're beautiful.
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Anonymous asked: why so happy?
Happiest I could ever be right now.
For real.
I just want a cute girl to go on a date with.
That’s all.
Being sober is different.
I kinda like it.
I guess……..
Its just lonely.
I hate being the middle man all the time.
I actually want a relationship. A good one. I want to be able to cuddle and watch movies and go to the park and do random things and drink coffee.
All my friends who basically live at my house now are in relationships and I’m just there while they all get to cuddle and go to sleep and whatever…
Oh well.
Anonymous asked: I'm sure there is probably someone right in front of you and you just don't know it yet.
Seriously falling for this girl.. Who’s gay I know. But dating this guy who I’m friends with. So complicated. I really like her………
Anonymous asked: You'll find someone, you always do.
Anonymous asked: You are great. I think it's so fantastic that you're just getting up and starting over. Good luck with the new old job Miss Annie!
I'm hoping today works out.
It’s pride but everyone I know is going with someone and I’m gonna be alone. I’m use to being alone, but whatever. And I just want to be able to cuddle with someone. I’m tired of being the middle man. Or whatever. Fuck.
Anonymous asked: Right now I feel like just snuggling with you. That's all really. Ugh.
I haven’t done this in so long.
Hello, last summer!
Anonymous asked: Are you in a relationship?
And now I lay here.
I can’t explain how difficult it is to be in a house alone by myself every night.
I’m waiting for something new to happen, I don’t know what it’s going to be but I can feel some change coming my way. If that makes sense. Hopefully it’s good. But whatever it is, I’m going to welcome it.
I'm going to stop being lazy
Start hanging out with more people. (hopefully new ones) Even though I’m shy. Start playing more music. Start living again.
Fuck drugs, fuck all that stuff. I want to be me again.
Anonymous asked: It'll be okay girl. You'll meet people who don't suck, you'll be clean, and you'll be the most successful and adorable musician/elf speaking Texan around. As hard as it is, you're stronger than Iron, Diamonds, and every other tough thing in the universe.
roddyj-deactivated20120106 asked: i would watch the l word with you. seeing as i am currently watching season3 episode8 and i love to cuddle :)
And I don't even have anyone to go to Pride this...
:|
I may not even go.
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Anonymous asked: i know it seems like no one cares. i care. i'm disappointed, annie. but i care.
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Anonymous asked: You are beautiful and lovely.
Anonymous asked: 'i know you've got a heavy heart, i can feel it when we kiss.' the song seems like it's about you.
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I'm becoming an alcoholic.
everyone I know sucks. js.
artnessmonster asked: You attract me. But you're probably not surprised by that :)
Anonymous asked: Annie, keep your chin up. You're stronger than any substance. I will be cheering for you even in the darkest of times (:
nightmares-and-daydreamss asked: <3
mossey asked: if i was in texas, or if you were in california, i would help you. and i mean that, even if i've never met you.
Anyway.
After last night I don’t even know. I want to go out and do something but there’s nothing to do. But I’ve got at least 40 beers that ima drink and watch the l word all day so hopefully it won’t be that bad, maybe I’ll end up with some company at some point but whatever. It’s so strange being clean.. I can do this though.
Anonymous asked: what did you get kicked out of rehab or something? You only left like a week ago, how could anything be better?
Get out of rehab, things get worse.
I’m tired of people fucking me over, I meet a girl finally and I get fucked over, all my friends straight up fucked me over. I’m just so tired of everything.
I remember why I did drugs in the first place. I’ve probably taken at least 5 xanax bars but I’m really staying clean off h.. but fuck all this.
I hate being alone. And I hate that no one actually gives a fuck....
trainspotters asked: how's your summer been? besides hot considering you're in Texas.
So scared right now..
About to be totally checked into this place.. Can’t even smoke a fucking cigarette. Someone kill me.
trainspotters asked: you take really attractive pictures. sorry if that's creepy aha but it's true and you're attractive.
toinen asked: Good luck with the rehab ♥ You are amazing, I wish I could be there for you.
Anonymous asked: what are you going to rehab for?